Just looking at the list made me feel exhausted. There is a lot going on in my life these days and most of the time I'm not even sure how I get everything done. Actually, let's face it, I don't get everything done.
The worst part is that some days I just want to stop. I want to pretend that I don't have to do any of what is on the list. This I struggle with most because a lot of the things on the list are things I absolutely love doing since they revolve around my business. Realistically, it's not that I don't want to do them, it's just that I need a break. Where is the break though? You probably remember my superwoman post a while ago, and truly there is never a break. I work when I get home, eat dinner, and then work some more until I go to bed. On weekends, I often work eight hour days with the rest of the time being spent on running errands and attempting to do some fun things in there as well.
I think the last time I legitimately wasn't busy and could do whatever I damn well pleased was Christmas break.
That's over three months ago.
I'm tired.
This week, I'm finishing final preparations for my first big craft fair. I'm not sure how I'll finish. Probably some late nights coming up, but it will get finished.
But it doesn't stop there. It keeps going. And going. And going.
I know that there will be a time when this will all end. Eventually, I'll be able to work an eight hour day and I can stop what I'm doing and say that I'm done working for the day. I can't shut off my computer, put down a drawing pen, put the envelopes back onto their shelves, package the last card, say hi to Andrew as he walks in the door after getting home from work, and enjoy the rest of the evening just as I please.
Eventually. But for now, I'm tired.
Here Here.. I'm little mentally and creatively drained. I go from working my day job to sitting in front of my laptop promoting, blogging, listing, etc. If I'm not marketing myself I'm working on new patterns or sewing. I actually had to force myself to go out and do other things and take a break.
ReplyDeleteI guess it's a good thing that I don't have tons of open orders and what not but I feel it's an equal amount of pressure because if I don't promote myself and put in that time in front of the laptop than there won't be any orders.
Perhaps you should step away from the computer, sit outside, and try to do stuff that you can do tha'ts relaxing and work related. Even though it's work it may help!
This is exactly how I'm feeling right now. I'm tired, overwhelmed and grouchy.
ReplyDeleteI hope you get a break and some rest soon.
I've been there! Maybe cut something out....when I am super busy I usually cut out blogging. I love blogging but don't always have the time to put together an involved post. It is hard, but you'll get to the point where you can work for yourself! And....it is never an 8 hour day, it's more like 12 every day, but if you love it, so what? :)
ReplyDeleteThis has been me for months, but I think I finally figured out part of the problem and hope to get back on track and inspired again soon. My to-do lists are always endless and I'm actually amazed that I get anything done.
ReplyDeleteoh man. and people think that working for yourself means you have lots of freedom! hang in there - and good luck this weekend :)
ReplyDeleteYep, I'm right there with you. It's an unbelievable amount of work to run your own business, and it can be really hard to balance the rest of your life, too. When I quit my day job I also decided to go back to school, so I've been doing this dance for a while. I know it will eventually get better, but I'm honestly kind of burned out right now.
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